Yes, bdulong........ you're so good at being kind to us, send it back to ya!
Thank you for showing us that there are even struggles in size 1 jeans, so
we have to stop following the delusion "oh, if I could only be a size ____, then I will be happy."
I think that's my last hold out. I keep thinking that no one wants me because I'm heavy,
with this deep down thought that if I was thin, then I'd be happy and feel secure and loved and men would be lining up at the door. But I don't want to test it: just in case it isn't true.
When I was thin and looking pretty good, my husband cheated on me and wanted other women
instead. So, I think that's always in the back of my mind.
It's not about the size after all is it?